I’ve been trapped in an ongoing battle with my health for years now. Many words and updates are scattered in this space as I’ve tried to honestly and whole heartedly share that struggle with you. Lately, my frustration in this area is overwhelming.
Poor health is such a vicious cycle. Making bad food choices inevitably leads to more sugary and processed choices. Not exercising leads to zapped energy which makes any movement completely undesirable.
So, that’s where I’m at right now, desperately trapped in horrible food choices, sidelined with complete and utter exhaustion. The study I just finished with Proverbs 31, What Happens When Women Walk In Faith by Lysa TerKeurst, could not have come at a better time…
The book teaches five important phases of faith we go through while in pursuit of a dream (p.9):
- Leaving. We must leave the old to gain a new level of faith.
- Famine. The phase where we lose our comfort zone and must depend even more on God.
- Believing. By fully experiencing God, we are able to believe in Him more than ever.
- Death. We can no longer make strides towards our dream on our own.
I love the way Lysa describes the Resurrection phase:
“In a way only He could, God makes your dream come true. Only then do you understand that real joy isn’t in the dream itself but rather in the richer faith you acquired along the way.”
Here’s where I find excitement through all of my crushing exhaustion. I’m in phase 4!
Over the past couple of years that I’ve been sharing my dream of beautifully optimal health here with you, my faith has grown exponentially. I can easily recount each of the above phases during that time period. The whole process began by leaving behind years of isolation and stepping out in faith to share my story here.
The Famine phase was a really tough one. I forced myself to show some of my darkest and most embarrassing moments in order to share the beauty of God’s grace through my testimony. This was so incredibly far out of my comfort zone. Telling those stories has gotten a little easier with time, but only through a great deal of trusting and dependence on God.
This leads seamlessly into believing. That trust and dependence has allowed me to experience God like never before. My health may not be where I want it. However, He is teaching me by making other dreams come true, like my long lived dream of writing, how real and able He actually is.
The Death phase with its ugly name, but beautiful pre-Resurrection placement, is where I’m stuck now. As frustrating as being stuck anywhere can be, knowing the light at the end of the tunnel is right around the corner, really helps me breathe deep again.
I can’t do this on my own. If there was a quick fix or program that could make us healthy, I would most definitely know about it. I’ve tried them all over the years.
Next week, I’ll post a new Turning to Food update. I skipped last month’s. We will just chalk that up to me being knee deep in the death phase. I have a good feeling this week that things are going to be looking up! I would love for you to subscribe below and join me in this journey.
Do you have a dream you are working towards? What phase are you in right now?
If you have time today, check out the rest of my to be read pile for 2015: