My anxiety has been through the roof lately.
Two weeks ago, I took a trip to Disney with my husband and son. On the way home, I could barely help drive thanks to the panic that overtook my body and mind throughout the 17-hour car ride. I ended up driving a total of about 3 hours, compared to my husband’s 14. Thankfully, most of my time behind the wheel was stopped in traffic…
These are my first words here since those stressful hours in the car. I have kept a steady stream of anxiety flowing ever since that day, but it is finally starting to dissipate. One thing bringing me peace is my current Bible study, Living So That by Wendy Blight.
Last week, she referenced the Parable of the Sower in Luke 8. Jesus tells his disciples about how seed, representing the Word of God, can be placed in 4 different types of soil. The soil refers to different types of hearts and how well we can receive and live the Word, depending on the state of our heart.
I am definitely thorny soil…
“The seed that fell among the thorns represents those who hear and receive the Word, but their hearts are so distracted by the things of the world that they choke out what they have heard.”
I know about God’s promises about peace. One of my favorite scriptures:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Somehow when life happens to me, I easily forget these truths.
That day in the car, I couldn’t stop thinking about a doctor’s appointment I would take my daughter to the day after we got home. We were finally to learn if a lump on her thyroid could possibly be a cancerous tumor. We had waited months to find out.
The doctor told us to follow up in a year and he feels strongly it is nothing for us to worry about. Clearly, he doesn’t know me at all. I worry… It’s just what I do. All the time.
This week, my precious daughter suffered through a few days of complications from her diabetes. As I watched her sleep, I worked on the Living So That section on prayer. I love how God brings us the words we need to hear at exactly the right moment.
Our memory verse for the week:
So I prayed. I approached His throne with confidence and asked for her healing, then called on my beautiful Group 7 ladies to join me in prayer. I knew He would have her back to her adorable little sassy self, just as He always has done. Gone was the woman who couldn’t even drive because of a lack of trust that He would take care of my little girl.
God always pulls us through. We can trust Him. Thanks to this study and the extra time I’m spending opening my Bible because of it, my soil is starting to clean up. The thorns are beginning to disappear.
Is your heart distracted? Are the things of this world choking out the scripture you know to be true? Approach His throne with confidence, my friend. He will see you through…