I’m a quitter. I love to start new projects, but finishing is not an area in which I excel. From half-finished crafts around my house to the trim in my bathroom I never painted to match the rest of the walls, I too quickly move on to the next line of my to-do list.
Sometimes I think the beautiful quote about not giving in until the miracle happens literally screams out to me periodically throughout my days. It seems to beckon loudly at first, but when I finally drop the current project, it turns to a whisper and finally just disappears.
I give up. Before the miracle happens. Every time…
It’s not that I lose faith in my path. Usually boredom sets in. Or it just gets too hard. Maybe there is even a little fear of true success that sneaks in. Perhaps even self-sabotage.
I had a lifelong dream of owning a coffee shop. Around 10 years ago, I started one with my husband. It was an immensely exciting time, setting everything up, meeting my new regular customers, learning how to run a business… Two years later, we shut it down and moved away.
Hobbies come and go quickly with me. Scrapbooking, jewelry making, sewing,… I’m great about buying all the supplies. I have a beautiful brand new, hardly used sewing machine as proof. Somewhere along the way I drop these projects from my schedule.
Boredom, I suppose.
For the past two years, I’ve found an incredible love for writing. This blog came about to share that love with others. Lately I’ve been slacking off around here. My original posting schedule of twice a week drifted into once a week, more often even less.
Self-sabotage. Fears of failure/success…
After last week’s rant, I decided to rethink this quitter mentality in a couple of important areas. My health goals have been on the back burner and I haven’t posted a Turning to Food update in months. That cycle will be broken in August. Stay tuned for how I’m pressing forward with my food addiction fight.
I’m also refusing to quit this online space. As the new school year approaches for my son, I know my schedule will slide beautifully back into place. Summer definitely throws me off.
My writing, even with all the extra work this blog entails, will move forward. Thankfully, I have a trip to Allume, a blog conference booked for October, to ensure this happens.
This incredibly encouraging verse is now engrained in my heart:
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. ~Galatians 6:9 (NIV)
We will reap a harvest if we don’t give up.
Wait for the miracle…
My miracle looks like consistency on this blog, publishing a book, and an amazing, growing community. The last one is already quickly being established thanks to you.
If you are struggling with quitting something because of fears or it’s just getting too hard, try giving it a little more time. Hang in there, my friend. The harvest is coming…
What does your miracle look like? Is there an area of your life where you are weary and ready to give up? I would love to hear from you. Let’s help each other to keep moving forward.