I must confess. I’ve been angry at God. That ugly, incredibly uncomfortable, I can’t even talk to you kind of anger. Have you been there?
Many times over the course of my lifetime I’ve found myself in that space. There were years trapped deep in the throes of my addictions. I remember wondering why He abandoned me for so long. Once I entered recovery, I finally realized He was always by my side or there’s no way I would have survived those long, dark days.
When my daughter was diagnosed with diabetes a year and a half after her father lost his life to the same disease, I was furious with God. The thought of my baby girl dealing with an illness I watched her dad slowly die from became too much for me to bear. I so needed to turn to Him in those overwhelming moments, but instead I did the opposite.
I eventually found my way back to Him only to end up with that same intense anger years later in the back of an ambulance by my son’s side as he battled a grand mal seizure, right before his epilepsy diagnosis. The darkness and inability to understand these afflictions placed on my precious little ones wouldn’t allow me to let God in at a time I needed Him the most.
After finally realizing my children’s illnesses would someday become their sermons, I knew He would use these struggles to allow them to serve others in very special and significant ways. By opening my heart to God, my anger eventually turned to understanding and trust again.
This doesn’t by any means imply that I don’t get angry at God anymore. I still find myself back there every now and then, but thankfully it looks quite different these days.
Please join me at ArabahJoy.com today to read what I’ve learned about dealing with those unavoidable times we find ourselves angry with God…
Thank you for being so open and honest, Candace. I’m so grateful God wants us to share even our angry feelings with Him and that our anger will take take away the love He has for us. Blessings and hugs to you!
Hi, Trudy! I’m so grateful for those things as well. It took me a long time to realize I wasn’t fooling God by acting like I never got angry with Him. Those times are inevitable and He can handle it :). Blessings and hugs to you, my friend!
Wonderful post Candace! I left a more detailed comment on Arabah Joy’s blog.
Thanks for sharing and linking up to the #SHINEbloghop.
Wishing you a lovely day.
xoxo
It’s always my pleasure to join you ladies, Jennifer. Thanks so much for your support!
Thank you for being so real and honest. When I was developing my relationship with God about ten years ago, I would never get angry at God. I guess I didn’t think it was right. Since then I have had moments that I am not proud of because I needed to let it out that I was hurt, unhappy or had no idea why this was happening. God’s grace has saved me over and over and those angry moments were ones that were ugly but have brought me forward to a deeper relationship with God. Great words today!!!
Grace is such a beautiful thing. It truly overwhelms me at times, Mary. Each of those moments of anger have brought me closer to God as well. It’s wonderful how that happens :).
Thank you for being so open with your post. I can recall there have been times that I have been angry with God. As a Christian I did not feel like it was allowed but it was how I felt. I found the best way I could deal with it, was to tell God how I really felt, so we can get my emotions all out in the open and deal with them. It worked.
I so agree with you, Sophia. Getting those emotions out in the open is the best way to deal with them. Those times are life changing in an amazing way. Thanks for sharing your experience!
Beautiful post. I liked how you pointed out that God can take whatever anger or upset we have and still love us. Like any good parent, but better because He’s perfect!
I’m so thankful that He is perfect but we don’t have to be, Jenny :). That is absolutely soul relieving! He loves us through all of our emotions and struggles.
Heading over to read your post 🙂
Thanks, Sonya! I’ll see you there ;).
Great post! I love that God can take it when we’re angry, and that we can be honest with him because he knows anyway. I know the times when I’ve been angry I’ve felt better after I’ve let it out and I think being honest with God draws us closer to him than when we try to hide our feelings and pretend everything’s okay.
The relationship just gets so much better when we become completely honest, Carly. It’s been such a refreshing change for me. It’s funny how we think we can hide our feelings from Him. There’s just no possible way to do that :).
Candace I am in a point where I am so angry with God. I raised my daughter and the past year she has decided we as parents did everything wrong and she doesn’t want our grandchildren around us. We are Christians and thought we did everything right. Keep praying she will forgive us and bring the kids over but she won’t. It has been especially hard since recently my husband is getting over a staph infection. Please pray for us we are heartbroken.
Hi Linda, I’m so sorry for my delayed response. I will definitely pray for you and your family. What a heartbreaking situation. Life can be so hard. My family is in the midst of a crushing struggle as well which is why I’ve been away so long from this online space. I truly believe in my heart it’s ok to be angry with God. He can handle it. Let yourself feel all the feelings that come as you walk this very difficult journey. You will continue to be in my prayers. Much love to you.