How many times have you gone to bed at night knowing with absolute certainty that the next morning would be day one of your new healthy life? I do this daily.
My alarm goes off way too early. I drag myself downstairs, drive my son to school, and head down the road to my favorite local coffee drive thru. This, of course, sets the tone for the rest of the day. You know that “oh well, tomorrow would be a better day to start anyway” tone.
Why is it so hard for me to come home and make a healthy green smoothie or a nourishing smoothie bowl rather than pull up to that S’more latte delivering window? Why don’t I climb the stairs to my cute little gym instead of parking on the couch with my laptop after I arrive home with the aforementioned S’more latte? Both of these choices always seem to lead to a day filled with heavily processed junk food and far too much time sitting.
Yet I continue to ask myself those same questions on this long, winding journey to health. Why isn’t self-control enough? And where did the little I still had disappear to? Can you relate?
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.
Amen, brother. I’m so with Paul here. He continues contemplating the subject with this:
For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. (v.18-19)
I completely get this! My desire to take care of this body God created for me to use while in this life is monumental, yet I continue to choose gluttony and an incredibly sedentary lifestyle. So what is a well intentioned, donut loving, Netflix binge watching woman to do?
Here’s the key our dear friend, Paul, uncovered all those years ago:
Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! (v.24b-25a)
We are human, flawed, and inherently sinful. God is our answer. Self-control will never be enough to get our bodies healthy and lose the weight we desire. We need soul work first.
I’m a big believer in prayer and fasting as amazing tools for body, mind, and soul. You can read more on my thoughts on this topic in Choosing God Over Food but let me share here again what a life changing choice it is to turn to Him instead of that bag of chips.
I’m a work in progress with this. I go for months without a fasting day. But I can tell you this: whenever that day happens, when I spend more time with God who lifts me up rather than the unhealthy foods that weigh me down, I’m made anew. There’s a definitive and beautiful shift deep inside me.
This is the focus for this month’s Turning to Food series. Let’s get back to choosing Him over food. I’m certain from past experience this is absolutely possible. Care to join me?